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Impetus: The Messengers, Season Premiere

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The Messengers: Week 1

10 people put out on the Skid Row for 24 hours. They are meant to gather insight into the world of the impoverished. Some greet them with angry voices. Others find in these temporary visitors friends. Either way, they will return to their homes after 24 hours. No, they may never know the full extent of those on the streets. No, they may ne’er come near the broken heart of the lonely…no, not only lonely, but the chronically so. However, their voices can return to “another land” and carry with them power. Will they do so? Were they touched enough to invoke change in their hearers? Could they bring back with them power to move me?

Several touched my heart:

  • ROBERT RUTHERFORD
  • DARRYL VAN LEER
  • CORNELIOUS “SEE” FLOWERS

Afterthoughts:

I look upon you and I think…
I think I know your world
But I see your world through me
The world I see is me

Is there another truth
A truth that exists outside me?

Do you see ME as I am?
Can I see YOU as you are?
Let’s try

K.A.

Goals, State of the Art

The Decision

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In the wee hours of an early July (7/5/06) morning I considered once again the idea that I had been entertaining for nigh over a month. I knelt down to again dedicate myself to the service of my Father in Heaven. While I prayed I felt to make my decision to go to medical school official. I told my Father that I would be heading down a new road and that I knew without Him the road, while it may be helpful to others, would ultimately be fruitless to myself. I felt a sense of peace and in my mind seemed to form the thought “with God nothing is impossible”.

As the week progressed I felt positive in my new decision. I emailed UVSC’s student & career counselors and set up an appointment with the premed counselor for the upcoming Monday. By week’s end I felt the stark reality rest upon me once more that this journey would not be what it could be without my focus being firmly set on doing the will of my Father, on keeping Him first and foremost in my life. I again recommitted to reading from the good word of God. Turns out that I’m teaching the Old Testament in church, a nerve racking, but rewarding call.

Since that decision I’ve begun to pull my resources. I’m considering how much money I’ll need to attend school, where I’ll be employed, and if I’m going to keep my businesses and business interests. I’ve purchased some CDs about the MCAT, a book on med schools and had an offer from a friend to get the Kaplan books to prep for the MCAT.

This is my update.

Dreams, State of the Art

Dr Run

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Alright. The purpose of this blog is two fold:

1. To report on the craziest run I’ve ever done up to this point in my life &
2. To state my ever growing desire to put myself through an even more grueling regimen than I am currently under.

First off…the Xango Wasatch Back Relay: 175 miles. 12 team members. 2 vans. Craziness. Quickly, though I hope to elaborate more in the near future, I had the time of my life. It’s interesting how you can enter another world for a time and break all expectations you’ve placed on yourself. I did so and it wasn’t due in any small part to the team members who ran with me, gave me water, and encouraged me ever step of the way.

I experienced inner strength sure, but the more rewarding part was the help from my fellow runners. The lessons I learned about teams was very encouraging. The help I received from above was incredible and I give all glory to my God who ran with me the entire way.

Secondly…the thought has been creeping ever more into my thoughts to go to med school. I had been preparing to go to grad school yes, but never really thought that med school was a possibility or even an interest. Turns out it is. For the last month I’ve been tossing the idea around in my head, talking with doctors and playing our scenarios in my mind. Neurology is the specialty I’d like to enter. I’m not sure where my “Brain World” idea will fit in there, but I suppose that it would be no different than going into research for 10-15 years like I had planned on and then putting that idea together.

Oh, and just for the record my thoughts towards med school predated the following little tidbit: I’ve started watching the inaccurate TV show House, M.D. Love it! Not sure why, but I love it.

Making a Difference, The World

MySpace Sued for Failing to Protect Minors

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MySpace Sued for Failing to Protect Minors

Wow! I don’t think I’ve read a thread like this in a long time. This has gotten me so riled up and as I read each comment on the trial I couldn’t help but think of Jack Johnson‘s song entitled “Cookie Jar“. The bottom line is that every is blaming everyone else for the ills that exist in society and in the very process of doing so they all are shirking their own responsibilities.

If there’s a problem it’s ALL our faults. It’s not the website owner alone, it’s not the little girl that gets online and reveals her personal information alone, it’s not merely a parental breakdown.; Every person is involved and is responsible. If you hear about it and go about your way without committing to make things better for someone else in some other way…it’s YOUR fault, YOU’RE TO BLAME.

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Jack Johnson
Cookie Jar

I would turn on the TV but it’s so embarrasing
To see all the other people I don’t know that they mean
It was magic at first when they spoke without sound
And now this world is gonna hurt you better turn that thing down
Turn it around

“It wasn’t me”, says the boy with the gun
“Sure I pulled the trigger but it needed to be done
Cause life’s been killing me and the censor begun
You cant blame me cause I’m too young”

“You can’t blame me sure the killer was my son
But I didn’t teach him to pull the trigger of the gun
It’s the killer on this TV screen
You cant blame me its those images he seen”

Well “You can’t blame me”, says the media man
Well “I wasn’t the one who came up with the plan
I just filled my camera with what the people want to see
Man it’s a two way mirror and you cant blame me”

“You can’t blame me”, says the singer of the song
Or the maker of the movie which he based his life on
“It’s only entertainment and as anyone can see
The smoke machines and makeup
Hey you cant fool me”

It was you it was me it was every man
We’ve all got the blood on our hands
We only receive what we demand
And if we want hell then hells what well have

And I would turn on the TV
But its so embarrassing
To see all the other people
I don’t even know that they mean
And it was magic at first
But it let everyone down
And now this world is gonna hurt
You better turn it around
Turn it around

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Making a Difference, Relationships, Words

Luf

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Back by popular request…well, alright, I just wanted to put it up here, but anyhow…it’s an oldie, but a goodie, one that definitely has withstood the test of time…in fact, I think it may be the only one. :o)

Luf, my friend, is all you need
to calm that raging sea.
For it’s luf, with the ‘uf
that makes us you and me.
Now I know it’s hard to ‘uf the luf,
but practice & you will
And when you get that ‘uf in luf
ohhh ~~~ so much better will you feel.
That’s all I have to say for now;
remember, luf is true!
So live each day with ‘uf in luf
and luf will you get too.

Ask me sometime to read it to you…the accent is much of the effect on this one.